I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
“I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely … Read More
I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
“I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and … Read More
I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
“I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching … Read More
It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.
“It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or … Read More
Sometimes fantasies are better than life.
“Sometimes fantasies are better than life.” Beatrice Sparks
Maybe the new me will be different.
“Maybe the new me will be different.” Beatrice Sparks
The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
“The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.” Beatrice … Read More
I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
“I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to … Read More
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
“This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight … Read More
one day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young
“one day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young” … Read More
I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
“I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the … Read More
I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.
“I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big … Read More
Alone. The saddest word in the world.
“Alone. The saddest word in the world.” Beatrice Sparks
How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
“How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?” … Read More
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
“My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I … Read More
Lying – remembering beauty in truth.
“Lying – remembering beauty in truth.” Beatrice Sparks
The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
“The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the … Read More
I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
“I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was … Read More
I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
“I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares … Read More
They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
“They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” … Read More